— Hannah Arendt
I wanna write but I can’t cause I can’t cause it’s too sad and I’m too sad and everything’s a mess, it always is.
MEcO leadership training seminar 2012
@ Monte Cruz Resort, San Felipe, Zambales
HK 2012 with blockmates!
This sadness is unbearable I could go on for months trying to explain what kind of fluster I’m in. It’s every little problem building up into a massive monstrosity of a problem trying to prick every ounce of me, stonewalling me from the serenity and the calm and the potential bliss the world has to offer. I could cry, but my eyes won’t let me so I let my hands take the liberty of writing (though, ineptly), attempting to make this all go away.
Realization of the day: I like boys who can keep an intellectual conversation. The ones who don’t get scared when I get too passionate about things like the environment, politics and the economy, maybe someone who can even argue with me. I wouldn’t mind, I wouldn’t mind at all. I just sometimes need to be reminded that they’re not all gossip and cars and sex and alcohol, that’s all.
Lately I’ve noticed myself (or more of my wardrobe) flower into sleeker and more formal stuff. People have been asking me why I’ve been dressing up like I’m going to work or why do I look like I’m going to have a business presentation: constantly wearing blazers, sheer polos, knee-length bandage skirts, maxi skirts, and pastels, blacks and whites to school.
Well, not all the time, especially during days that have PE, but you get the point.I don’t know if it’s the effect of my new found love of all things sophisticated or if it’s because of my mind being continuously thinking of work and my future career. Yes, I still have 3 more years of college to trump but the thought of that “world” excites me.
Also, pinterest is a really helpful tool to pack all your inspiration into a few boards!
Here are some of my school/work pegs that I really need to share because they’re all too lovely: